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Worst times in my life.

Sunday, January 29, 2012 || 11:32 AM

Today I thought I would like to blog a story about me and this person that meant the most to me, the guy who would never leave me alone in whatever tough times I faced, the guy who would wipe away my tears when I cry like a baby (I always do haha), the guy who would hug me and ask "why you so fat?", the guy who would ALWAYS notice when I'm feeling down or shivering in cold and help/assure/comfort me in whatever way he could, the guy who would ALWAYS tolerate me no matter how unreasonable I am (until now lol) the guy who would act cute with me, and with him we would always do stupid things together, sleep together, laugh like crazy together...

However the sad part is that good things don't last, no matter how you wished it would stay, good things would eventually come to an end.

I don't think we'll ever be the same again, like how it used to be, when I tell my friends "eh I break up already.." and they'll be like "aiya will patch back one la, always like that what!" and all their words would come true, we'll be back together again. Always, the fault would be on me, cos' in this r/s, trust me, nobody except him could tolerate the real me. I guess this time, I've reached his limit and now he really decided, "Oh you know what, I want to end all this right now, I want to be single right now."

Last time I really wished that this r/s would stop, but srsly, do I mean it? Now that I thought of it, HELL NO. How could I mean it? Though I admit, sometimes I kept thinking "Have my feelings faded?" but never once I've thought of his, because I honestly believe that he, would never ever leave me. I think about our future, our times together whenever I'm not with him, and it really did helped me get better throughout the day when I feel lost, and pathetic (like times in malaysia). He was above everyone else and basically everything, to me. Without him, it's like my heart feels super empty. I needed him, and I know that. Why did I always wanted to let go? Now that I really got what I wanted (last time), I couldn't believe it. It was a scary nightmare, no, worst than that.

Now that I'm typing all this, I'm crying all over again. Waking up in tears, even my family don't know what they could do to help and all that they could was to talk sense to me, the other hugged me, but I don't know why, nothing is going right in my head. I lost a big part of something important in my life. Until now, I couldn't bring myself to accept the fact. "This must be a dream, yes it must." I couldn't sleep at all last night despite how lethargic I felt. Yes, last night was the worst day of my life, when you decided to step out of my life, deciding that you'll never return, liking someone else whom you don't even know well, and she, just replaces me and our memories like that. I don't blame you for this, after all, no one could understand me, how did I just thought you could?

But hey, I srsly want to thank you for this almost 2 years r/s you've given me. I choose to believe that you had given me everything and the best you could, though I'm not a good girlf to you, here I am saying sorry for the torments and tiredness I've brought to you in your life, and I hoped I really did made you happy before. Pure happiness. And I hoped you really loved me during those times. :)

I was really negative and you would always endure it. It is hard, I realised. How did I let someone I loved to go through shit because of me? I couldn't forgive myself anymore.. Now that I really know how you felt cos' I am experiencing now, I couldn't take it. You were truly very strong enough to keep on believing I would get over with my ex, and I did. I rmbed asking you while crying "Why would you love someone like me? I don't have a good attitude, bad figure etcetc.." and you said "I love you cos' you're like that, I love the way you are, and I won't ever ever leave you." But after all this, as I said, good things don't last.

If there is another chance, I would like the things between us to happen all over again. And no, don't tell me to stop crying, don't tell me you're not worth it, don't tell me I could move on, don't tell me not to do stupid things, don't tell me you just want to be friends or even best friends. Because srsly, I don't think I can take it anymore. I really could not bring myself to believe that you would do this kind of thing to hurt me.

I once asked you (during r/s), "why you like me ah?" and you were like "you really want know?" and you continued like "becox that time I see you like cute cute nerd nerd, with Elice they all (last time clique), and every time you walked past the bench I sit, I very happy cos' you very pretty!!" Hahaha, not a happy answer that I want but oh well, he's honest enough to tell me about it. Hmm. You liked me cos' of looks at first.

Then with the help of Elice, you got my number. I don't even know you and was really disgusted when you told me you stalk me. Lol.

Every time you'll walk pass my class, and I would ALWAYS (really) felt annoyed. Like "why the heck you keep looking at me, I don't even know you!" and yea, I really hated you that time. And you were very very shy, I hated shy guys, so minus some points off you already! Haha.

The first time we hang out, Dec 6 2009, you baked a cake for me, failed one. Haha and we sat mrt from Bedok to Joo Koon and back to Simei. Until I got to pay for the ride cos' exceeded the time limit. It was just like yesterday. I could remember everything. An uncle kept looking at the fail cake and laughed at us saying "your boyf? just started dating?", I remember you drew a pig on a paper/brochure to start the ball rolling cos' we were too shy to talk, and we making use of that paper definitely helped. Ohoh, I also told you to stop using the word "kies" cos' it's super gay... Lol!

Phone calls of us mimicking Phua Chu Kang and Ris Low, and all sorts of nonsense like 2hours call before me going to camp, or malaysia and all definitely made us closer, and I became more attached to you, slowly leading me to trust you, and I figured out that I could depend on you (finally!), a guy who wouldn't hurt me like how my ex did.

Soon we got closer and closer, meeting up with Yuexiu and Alvin for fried mushroom madness, meeting Yuexiu in siloso beach, where you first hold my hand, couldn't rmb the date (shit haha), always playing and sleeping in bus together with you, writing the book we had, the first time I cried I kept hiding it from you when I was telling some dark secrets only to some people like you know about me, how we always went vivo for pepper lunch. Every time you would just come to send me home whether I'm with you or not (rmb last time at Chujing's house? You didn't know the route but you tried cos' it was really late alr). Every moment is well cherished. And you could just forget all that and let this r/s go?

Our one year anni was spent in Ecp where we rented double seat bikes (yay) and when I cried telling you how much Taiwan sucked without you. We planned our future together (lol-ed but yeah), we played the hai dao chuan tgt.. Oh rmb we played rides not including USS, where me, Kailin and Yuexiu with you were playing happily for $6 scary rides? The swing kind.. haha I wanna go again! Do you want?

And some days you stayed in the whole day at my house, I woke up next to you in the morning. We bathed and raced to see who bathed fastest.. and we went out (cos I didn't went malaysia and nobody was at home during those times). Then soon the time came when you and my mother officially met, you were so nervous and all, yeah, but ahbi really liked you! :) :) that was really enough. We had fun and my mother began accepting you, with me slotting in good words for you of course! Lol!

Coming to my house then slowly became so common, but really, was it a chore for you? A work that you really didn't wanted to? Because of me not wanting to go out, and kept asking you to come over, are you mad? Sorry I didn't consider your feelings. I was too selfish.

In Malaysia I told everyone how great you were, how nice and how much you loved me. Everyone especially my weak grandma, wanted to see you, to see if you were THAT good. I came back, looking forward to tell you all about this, wanting to get a passport for you with you, and of course our science centre, our mango frappe, our fish and co, our running man and one piece, and BAAMM! I got the best, worst surprise ever. Just 8 days, instead of missing me like how I did to get thru all those days, you lost me, you carry on having the thought that it would be best you didn't had me.

I tried asking for a chance, I really would bring out the best to love you, to take care of you, to treat you well and always think of you. But you didn't want it. Instead, you wanted a girl whom you don't even know well, and you wanted her so much that you wanted to let go of all this wonderful memories. Is she an excuse? Or did you really loved her? I really don't know. All I know that it was a worst reason/excuse/thought ever for you to just dump me like that for a girl you don't know well. I don't know her existence at all, and I can't believe you bought roses for her during valentines in school, I really can't.. That shows that I don't know you well enough to know what you really want?

I cried for hours till my head hurts, people called me to cheer me up, if you guys have read till here, I want to say a thank you to you (friends) who tried to help me up. I couldn't get to sleep, and here I am, blogging this while still crying. I am thattt pathetic, yes.

Jack once said, "you all confirm won't last since you going poly soon, different schools and all", that triggered me but I confidently say "yea right, whatever you say I'll prove to you we can last." But lol..... is Jack a fortune teller?

I really miss you dedicating your shuffling videos to me, I miss stalking your blog, and asking you to post things up. How I missed the old you, who once loved me and once told me he'll love me till death. I miss you so much I couldn't explain. This is really too much for me to handle.

Lastly I really miss the fact that we could have done a lot of things that I really wanted to do with you when we're all free, but if only your feelings didn't fade. Take care, and if you want me back, please tell me... I still love you...

This whole surprise thing is reasonable enough for me to hate you. But why couldn't I? With a heart so weak, is love never meant for me? It is hard not to think about giving up on life.

Anyway, good bye dearest. I'll never forget you. Really. <3

Famous trademark tiko face! Cheeky boy!

Shuffle boy! Hahaha looong time ago.

First photos together with us wearing geek spects!

When you ordered some... nasi lemak, green colour one. Haha!

Bus times..

When you kissed me.

First kbox session!

Sunburned. I hate vitasoys but hey, packet very cute!!

Cross country!

First time at my house!

Facial noseee!

AH GERRR! (inside joke)

Ahbi and you, haha sweet.

Looks like I've won the i-love-you-more fights. :')

Blah blah black sheep.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012 || 3:05 AM

Yo I'm back again hahaha. (Okay srsly I don't know how to start an entry. -_-)
Time check 12.57am and there's school for a loooot of people but none for especially those who took the Olevels papers!!! Muahahahaha *laugh hysterically* but I'm a bit scared of how I'll score, think won't be so good leh. But... there's God's grace so I think can make it.

OK. ENOUGH OF THINKINGGGG.
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So 27th December my parents and bro went back Malaysia so I stayed at home to pack my wardrobe. Yes and after like so long some guy told me no difference when I whatsapp him the pictures of before and after.

Before:

After:

I can infer that it is neater and look better. Right not. Haha. I cleared a lot of jeans, seriously, reminds me of my flat tummy once..... :'( haha after packing watched super lots episodes of a cantonese show with Ahyi since she off day! And then we headed to Simei at night, met my another Ahyi to eat my chicken chop which I haven't been eating for very long.

I love the black pepper sauce!!

Homed and I did eye mask which I bought from Daiso. Hahahaha try it for funnnn.

Before:

After: (still the same!)

(Btw I attempted to straighten my fringe that night, hahaha)
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Next day 28th December went to Bugis with Ahyi to find another Ahyi (like confusing hor fyi I got 4 Ahyis) after her work cos' she got off day also as she's sick. Ate at this shop called Hotspot? Forgot already, their hot seller is that tomyam, super spicyyyy!! I remembered that day me and my mother ate until we teared (though we were good friends with spicy).

(Doesn't seem spicy but try drinking some)

Off to Bugis and spent like $70++ worth of items man. :'( salary gone, money fly like angry birds......

(Just realised that white sleeveless tee doesn't fit me somemore, haiz)

After buying and all I went to met Tiu a.k.a Yuexiu, and tried to kill our fats. I like workout, I miss running and getting 1st in place for girls. Dabao-ed kfc and went home.
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29th December I created something called Path. Only for Android and Iphone users I think. Hmm, thought it would be fun but actually normal normal la. I think its the fact that I don't have 3G. Path = mini diary! If you're bored then go create one and add me: SMING YAP.

Became super crazy and pathetic as I was waiting for 4pm to meet my Pierce a.k.a Kailin. Haha and at last! Went to Pasar malam at Tamp and Pasir ris, then Orchard and Somerset. Basically we shopped and money fly again. T__T Ate kfc and she kept kacau me take pictures (P/S: She spammed a lot of herself in my phone camera, super zilian).

Then we played bus till 11pm+. Around an hour I think. Had an awesome h2h talk. Shared a lot of shit stuff that happened to me as well as why/how/when I disliked her, and she told me her side of story as well. No ill feelings, just purely honest talks. Which is good. :) then went home liao lor. Fun day!
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30th December met to have singing (ktv) session with Jack a.k.a Yuhui, Kevin and Tiu. Initially it was planned to be like Jack, Kevin, Jiale and Jerald but both of them cannot make it. :( but nevertheless we had fun screaming like idiots with no complains from people or whatsoever. Kbox what hahaha!!

No Kevin in the picture cos' he is a soon-to-be famous rockstar and popstar whatever star singer so he's busy practicing lor. Haha!!! Okay not funny. -_-

But really, we had a lot of fun. Jumping, shuffling, shouting, dancing, like it's our great grandparents' house like that. Took recordings and realised how good I actually sound. Just kidding. Good day spent!!
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Last day of the year 2011 went out with Beast a.k.a Best friend a.k.a Judy/Chu Jing for a singing (kbox) session. Singing for two days consecutively man. Oh and last day of 2010 we spent the day singing (kbox) session also. Purely coincidence! Waiting for her to send photos to me...... Had super great time with her! Best friends confirm always happy time one. :D Can't wait to see her again.
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Next went to meet the fat tummy Jinxing at Redhill to go to service. Was late but at least got to hear a bit of the sermon, so motto for me is to throw and abandon all my unhappiness and look forward to 2012, which is now. Huhuuuu.

After service the cell went to Parkway parade's Fish and Co to celebrate and surprise Joseph on his birthday. Haha, Fish and Co people very cute and sweet! Ordered Seafood platter, nice leh!!! Shiok shiok. After eating we charge and zoom to Touch Centre for countdown. I promise that day was good. First minute of 2012 was spent with God. :D

Happy birthday Joseph~

When service's over, we got free supper!! Garlic bread, pizza, chicken wing! Yummy.

Happy mouths!

Free shuttle bus to Paya Lebar and took train to Tamp (thumbs up for still having trains during New year, so considerate) and walked home with Jasmine + her two cousins. :)
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1st January 2012 spent with Mr boom. He came over ard 3pm+ and played treasure hunt with me to find his Christmas present. Hahahaha he was super frustrated cos' he's too dumb to find things :x after finding he was like, "Oh 52 dollars, from Robinsons your ex workplace!" and kept on laughing. Zzz stupid me wrapwrap the present until forgot peel off price tag. -_-

Went Tamp, ate kfc, and arcade (omg 3 buttons - red green blue game I finally played into the final stage which is 22 wooh!), gave a kid a credit to play that game too cos' he kept on looking like very jealous like that.. I was like "Don't waste my money pls I really don't want to play anymore :(" and he was saying nonono until ultimately speechless when I gave him my sad face.

Caught "We bought a zoo" and the interesting fact is it was based on a true story. Not bad the show, rating 4/5! :) After that went to Pasar Malam, he bought his tutu (tried it, eww) and honey chicken chop (super nice better than xiaobawang!) Then he bought for me phone cover (yay save $5 hahaha).

(I like this though I don't like zebras)

Since we didn't meet for like a week or so already we got a lot of things to share. Had a nice day with him. Hopefully after school later he'll be free. I kinda miss him already. :(
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2nd December went out with fat tummy Jinxing!! No pictures cos' we not close! No la actually forgotttttt. Met at Farrer Park mrt and ate something atas at City square mall, I forgot the restaurant's name! The drinks free flow leh (wooo). Then walked around, then mrt-ed to Dhoby Ghaut to Plaza sing mall, then bought Gongcha at Grand cathay. Walau eh srsly this places so... new to me. First time going this kind of weird and confusing place, must learn!!!!

To be precise I actually only know: Bedok point, Simei eastpoint, Tamp mall, cs, t1, ??, ???, ???? (Omg listing this 3 places out shock me after 16years I only know how to really go this 3 places killmenowz omg walau it's true) Okay enough.

That Gongcha made us talk a lot. Haha, not awkward one first time going out. That fat tummy very.... funny. Lol!!! After that went to ulu ulu place to eat his taohuay (beancurd) and my grass jelly. Seriously we really like shui tong (water buckets). After eating we went Daisoooo!! And... saw... alot of familiar things (inside joke). Bought a stainless steel soap for Mum and he bought for his Popo (lol so cute + funny sia when he say Popo)

Fun dayyyyyy! :) P/S: I saw his tummy. MUAHAHAHAHA.
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And to anyone,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 2012 WILL BE BETTER!
Resolution for 2012: ~~Eat lesser kfc~~ In the midst of thinking.

Dedication!

Monday, December 26, 2011 || 4:51 PM

This post is only to special friends I've been tgt with in 2011. Prolly those who made an impact in my life. So scroll down, your name might be in it! If you think your name should be inside, maybe I forget so please tell me and I'll add in... Lol. This post is to hopefully gain back most of the f/s I've lost.

Ranking number 1! Dengdengdeng.....

Obviously is my 7-8 years best beast girlfriend, ONGCHUJING!

Hey best counsellor. Really thank God for you man srsly, without you, it's like honey without his bee. Aww haha. Okay la, don't want so mushy. Just wanna thank you for being there for me EVERYTIME when I need you, and sorry sorry sorry for making you disappointed like x1000 times because I always suddenly got something on ending up we can't meet, or whatever thing la. Hmm, rmb you said "Whenever you go out with me you got da yi ma sia" << Now I write this post also having! Meet up soon, my best friend. Swimming, baking, shopping, planning our future shop (wth) and whatever nonsense joke. Let's meet like "3 times a day with Ryan". I heart youzxc and always remember that you have me okay!! Though not 24/7 la. ♡

Ranking number 2! Dengdengdeng.....

My fatty north pole pillow + best guy friend la, HOWARDTAN!

Hello best listener. Thank God for letting me know you and giving you to me. Remember how we used to call each other up and keep mimicking Phua Chu Kang? Lol. Hmm we've known each other for... 2 years +? Count yourself I forgot hahaha. You're a really good guy la, but then now you a bit off already ah. Please go to church often okay. And think and care of me more if not I really box you. Though there are times that I got ap, pms or what, you never fail to tolerate and forgive me. Thank you for that lor. Please continue making me laugh by your singing and stupid actions okay. And must exchange Christmas present hor you go buy now I don't care. So see you soon hopefully after the chalet? Love you, pillar of strength. ♡

Ranking number 3! Dengdengdeng.....

My shitpee tiu girlfriend for 10+ years (?), YAOYUEXIU!

Hai best steady girl. You really very on one la, always can ask you last minute go out, and can always use your $$$ when I'm broke (and not return sometimes). Oh and I wanna tell you that I think we got a bit drift liao. You think so? You remember you gave me a pooh letter saying sad things? And then after that I gave you a paper (lame) saying what, must talk things out no matter what, then we sign on the paper (wa super lame). Okay la, the main point is to let you know I still remember and will do it la. Haha, you are a good friend and when with you, we can always buay paiseh or not afraid to do things in public. Meet up soon to dance/drink sharkfin soup and stay fat okay. And one thing, I will not give up on finding fried mushroom. Love you! ♡

Ranking number 4! Dengdengdeng.....

My maid for 50 years, MAYWU!

Surprised that your name is up here? Lol. I'm surprised also. Actually I've been bribed by some people to put your name up here. Ha lame. Okay, you are a super super sensitive girl when it comes to friend. Stop trying to please others because you can't and by doing that you are srsly annoying me as no one is that stupid like you. I remembered you saying that I'm the only one who can correct you. So I'm telling you now!! You don't live your life to please anyone, so don't ever, ever, do that. So what if you do it, no one's gonna appreciate and will even take you for granted. Waste your efforts only. Though I think we're not that close anymore due to not meeting up, I still love you okay. Don't get me replaced. -.- Always note that you're a great friend. Oh and stop asking if I'm angry or what okay. Catch up soon. ♡

Those are the top 4 priority la, the rest no order one. I see whose picture I kop first okay...

Best gossipers and friends.

Introducing KOHYUHUI and LEE JIALE!

Hi Jack and Jiale. I miss you guys la, sitting beside you all has been my joy leh. Haha.

Jack, we used to be so close!!! What happen?!?! Let's be close back okay. Lol. Hmm just wanna say thanks for making my day at class slightly better and let's go Manpuku and have Icecream soon! I now craving for my Teppan Chicken leh! Hen hungry la. You are a funny girl and also sometimes a good listener. Hope we can catch up soon to talk about funny things. Remember at Simei how we hide our carrot cake and laughing like mad? I miss that! Love you. See you soon okay. ♡

Jiale, you're the only guy who know my secret! You know what, ahemahem. Haha, you're the one that made me realised what guys are thinking ah. Love sharing things about people with you because you're such a objective person. You're never bias and always share out your thoughts. And thank you for helping me with almost all the subjects because you are sucha pro! Haha. "Wan le, quan fan le, hui zhong guo le!" See you soon with Jack! And all the best for... hoping what you can get, the girl, money, or whatever. Haha. ♡

Pretty helpers in classwork.

Introducing KHAIRINA and AISHA!

Hey ladies, I miss you! How are you doing? You two are my good friends in 4e3 you know?!

Khairina, at first I thought you were those shyshy and quietquiet, guaiguai type, but after knowing you, was shock to find out you were the opposite!! You can easily open up to someone after knowing them, and you're so funny sometimes. I love you for you always have no complains in helping me in my work and such. Where can I find sucha nice friend?! Hope to see you soon girl! Thanks. ♡
Aisha, you know the shirt you gave me was so nice.. and I like it alot. You know, from what I see, you are those who really would make an effort for people you love. Like, you know, presents and things like that. Not many can achieve what you can. Miss 'studying' with you in the early Tuesdays and Thursday and ending up eating Malay food instead. Always follow your heart but THINK from your brain before accepting r/s from guys or doing sotplug things or what okay. See you soon girl. ♡

Crazy stupid joker and love taking photos.

Introducing POHKAILIN!

This photo was like 2 years back if I'm not wrong. Kailin, see how you've grown!! So pretty now eh. Girl, we got a few problems going on in our friendship but it didn't really let us hate each other for a moment and see, we're okok now though things a bit shaky and it is super obvious we're not as close as before. You were once my very good friend! Haha, but it's okay. We'll work on it right? Thanks for your lobang everytime and your stupid jokes, hopefully we'll meet on Thursday! Btw, you've changed, like more mature, it's good but really for me I think I like you more in childish manner (points up). I know you've became a bit vain liao but don't over vain hor. You are those kind that I can relive stress easily with one. I love you and see you soon! ♡

Soon to be famous singer, better get autograph soon.

Introducing KEVINCHONG!

Combined photo cos' I didn't really have a nice photo taken with you, okay maybe I didn't find it properly la. Hi singerrr, how are you. We're going kbox soon. Hmm, you've been a nice friend and also a great helper in terms of homework la. Do know that sometimes my mean jokes are really jokes and don't get too angry and sad on it okay. You gotta control your temper at times because you must know, haters gonna hate, you going to let them laugh at you more meh if you at there being crazy in a negative way! No right! Haha, thanks for saying I sing like zhang shao han. And note that, you're a funny guy and never let anyone change that. See you soon! ♡

Quiet and a really nice girl.

Introducing LIMFANGYING!

Hi as you can see it's another combined photo, I'm just too lazy to dig out that one photo where you and I are only in it. Oops. So hi girl, you've been like my very good friend in class 4e3 you know that? I miss going recess with you leh! Haha. We haven't go out like we plan to, you know?! Just wanna tell you, thanks for everything you've done. Like telling me got what homework la, helping me copy things, and all sorts. I remember you once told me in Damai, I'm your good friend. I'm so happy to hear that you know. Continue trying to be more outspoken okay! I know you can do it. Also, do not be so stressed up by things easily. Don't ever make your life complicated when actually it is not at all. Hope to see you soon. Love ya girl! ♡

Popicabbage.

Introducing TAYWEIHERN!

Okay hi I know you probably won't see this but just wish to say that hey, you've always been a wonderful friend to me. You were once my guy best friend because you're always so nice, helpful, encouraging... Others will not know that you're really an awesome guy but I know, okay. Though now it appears that we don't even talk at all, memories still remains so I'm still okay. Thank you for being my friend. And remember you were once my daddy? Lol, you hoot people who bullied me. 'Bullied', haha. And the omgpop.com + fake audition. I miss playing with you. Hope to see you soon! ♡

My baby.

Introducing SHENXIAOCHUN!

Hi! I seriously don't know what happen to us!! We used to be super super close. Is it because we stopped going to Artclub? Remember times when me and you could easily go out after school, visit toysrus and things like that? Now it's kinda hard hor.. Hmm, thank God for letting me know you. It's been great being together with you. All the fun moments. So hopefully we'll get to catch up soon. And ya lor, I love you! Please talk to me, and laugh together like how we used to. Hahaha. Stay pretty and nice! My baby! ♡

Darling girl.

Introducing BELVYBAY!

Belvy, hello. We're super close this year, you realize that? Cos' of some issues I had with the previous recess clique. Haha, girl you're always so cheerful on the outside but I know that deep down you are facing things you think you can't handle. But girl, know that I am always with you though sometimes I really got things therefore the short replies and all. But know that if you meet me I can counsel you! Hahaha I remember you saying I'm a good counselor (wth). So ya ask me out. *hint* See you soon and stop letting things bring you down easily. I love you and thanks for supporting me when I'm sad with the issues! ♡

The rich snail.

Introducing GARYTAN!

Hello Curry, sometimes I don't know what you thinking you know. Hahaha, but ya, you're a good friend to be with and thanks for helping me get lobang! Nea, huat ah. You're weird, you know that? Lukewarm, you know? Haha, nevertheless I'm still thankful to have you as a friend la. Though I don't really know what to thank you for, hmm probably the kfc chicken you and Soonhao treated us! Strive to become a better person okay! And laugh more, malaysia boleh!!! Wooo. See you soon. ♡

Loud girl caring girl kind girl.
Introducing ACCALIALEE!

Hello if I'm not wrong this is our first picture together right? Or not. Haha, hi girl. To me, you've been very very sweet and good to people you love. I'm one of them. People who don't know you would think you're what you are not, but I know that you are those, who treats people very well. And, cherish them a lot. You've been a very good friend to me. Stay cheerful and see you soon. I'm here for you too okay. Miss your huggg la. Lol. Okay, I love you lot babe!! Thanks for that long long message you sent me in fb, touch until want cry already la. Stop eating so much sugar. ♡

Prawn lovers.

Introducing POHJINSOON and ELICETAN!

Combined photo again cos' I don't have shots with both of you! I think la.

Fire hippo has been a very very very very awesome friend to me. Just wanna tell you take nature as its course because sometimes things just don't be like the way you want it to be. But know that God is good okay, he don't give you this means he will give you something better. You're a great listener and encourager. Thanks for that. Hope to see you soon okay, be happy and hyper like how you used to be! ♡

Hello Cupcake. You are sweet like a cupcake. Erm, though we are not close anymore, I just want to let you know that you are a very kind hearted and nice person. You once showed me something I admire. Like, those sms you don't really like to receive, you wait until you got a better mood then you reply, which is super cool so you don't vent your anger/whatever on them. Remember we used to go to Bedok reservoir to think out things about certain people? I miss that. Hope to see you soon and stay happy okay. ♡

Kukumalu.

Introducing POHCAIJIA!

Hello, I miss how we used to be! It's like, you suddenly changed after you liked someone else. It's that how guys are suppose to be like? Okay what I mean is that you stop being so nice to me and it is as if you don't even know me. Kinda upset about it but yea probably you don't even care but thanks for being a nice guy friend. My ex guy best friend. Lol. All the best for chasing the girl you like and hopefully we'll hang out more. Don't want this friendship goes into rubbish bin you know? Hahaha. You once told me I changed you, your attitude/etcetc and your life. Wonder if it's true. Lots of memories with you la, so yup. Love you! See you soon. ♡

Powerpuff girls. Lol. Wonder who is this.

Introducing INKA, RAFIQAH, and HIDAYA!

Hello History friends, I couldn't find the picture that we had together so yup, three powerpuff girls shall do the job. Lol, though we are not close at all, I enjoy spending time with the three of you as you all are so cute together, adding Farahin/Hannah too la okay. Haha. :) You three are the best Malay friends I have in school, I think.. I miss spending time with you guys during History lessons and last minute studying during Olevel and we'll always joke around.

Rafiqah, doodling in history papers with me, drawing guys name out and whatever nonsense, giving me cookies and everything.

Inka, saying nice words to me and being so sweet when you laugh and telling me about guys, hehehe, Bedok reservoir guys, hehehe. Shhh.

Boobooshit, always shouting Kukubird to me. Our nicknames, and laughing like retards after that. I miss ittttt. Our nicknames so cute!

Hopefully I'll get to see you all soon! Love! ♡

Guess who! The sweet girl on my right.

Introducing YAOYUERU!

Oops sorry if this picture got unglam shots but it's the one I could find where we're doing the same action! Acting cute. Hahaha. Hi lorlor, I miss you leh. We used to be so close now normal only. Remember how you and Melissa gang up to not friend me during Primary 1? Then how me and you gang up on Melissa? Lol. Remember how we used to wear shoes with a wheel below to tuition? Remember how we used to say our favourite colour is Yellow when teacher asked? Remember how you put tissue into your clothes during one of the outings with our parents. Lol. I miss that! I miss the last time us. See you soonnnnn. *sigh* ♡

Bbq and Chalet Clique. Arsenal team, lolll.

Introducing DESMONDLEE, VENDERICKWEE, ALEXHO, and TANWAHGUAN!

Hi guys, just wanna thank you all for the laughter you all brought into my life. Each and everyone of you have a unique personality... Hahaha, thank God for letting me know you all and I really hope to see you guys taupok each other and have fun soon. With you all, it's like I can relief stress easily leh.

Desmond Chan, fat and comfy stomach dad and can act Ahgua immediately and always talking shit.

Alex Joke, skinny and small son who laughs at almost everything and can be so positive towards things.

Venderick Ahwee, a joke maid. Super vulgar guy. A guy who can easily make everyone laugh cos' he always insult people including himself.

Wahguan Corn, a cute son who sometimes is serious and know how to react to different situation well.

Hahaha, you guys are amazing. See you all soon okayyyy. ♡

Manpuku people.

Introducing JOSHUA!

Hello Elephanttttt. Really thankful to have you as my broooo. Haha, you're always there when I need someone, even when I'm not even approaching anyone you would take the initiative to text me. Though your relationship is unstable like mine, remember that God has plans for us. So what meant to be yours would be yours. Thanks for helping me going through some tough times, and always encouraging me. Remember last time you all kept disturbing me when I eating laksa saying "Jerald ai ni leh!" Lol joke, and we kept playing during mentoring sessions during p6 and playground and what not. Miss those times. Also, thank God for Jerald and Zhikai. I miss hanging out with you guys, cos' you all are so awesome!! Meet up soon! ♡

Koala.

Introducing LIMKAILIANG!

Hi Koala, long time no see eh!! This picture was the last time we met right? If I'm not wrong. Eh no... is the time during Manpuku!! Haha study fail leh. See you soon, thank you for being so awesome. Though now we're not that close anymore but I hope that we would work on it okayyyy, like what you want. You're awesome man! Koala koala koala. Why your name is Koala again? I forgot! Haha, okay la, text me okay!! Whatsapp also can. Pray that our Amath can make it. And other subjects also....... cui!!! Catch up soon and I'm here for you! ♡

Crayons.

Introducing CHANJUNHAO!

Hello, when are we meeting up soon ah!! See, no photo to put so put this. Hey, we've got a lot a lot of memories. I still keep your emails.... Hmm. Haha, you're a really good friend to be with always cheering me up when I'm down, and I just wanna let you know that God is there when you need Him and let's be more towards God and less towards the temptations the stupid satan give us. Talk to me more please, hahaha, oh and your present really rotting!! I miss how close we used to be but now I hope you please don't forget me as a friend okay. I'm here for you too if you need me. See you soonnnn handsome. ♡

Study peeps.

Introducing DARRENTAN and CHUDI!

Hello, we've met a couple of times to study and apparently it always fail la. So thank God for both of you cos' you all never fail to make me stay strong on weak subjects, times where I wanted to give up on especially Chemistry you all tried to help me as much as you could la. So really thankful and hope that we could really hang out again cos' I miss you guys!

Darren, I miss your bibi hahaha, your jokes and seriousness when it comes to Christian-related things and I hope you'll come my church soonnnn. Michelle miss you hahaha.

Chudi, just wanna tell you thanks for sending me home and joking with me everytime and I hope that the 7-11 near your house sell good slurpee already. Hahaha ya lor, eat Teppan Chicken soonnn.

Rmobbers.

Introducing, no one.

I like this photo a lot. Shows that I've been flashmobbing. Dancing suddenly to everyone on the street. Hahaha, got pay somemore. Okay la, that's all!

P/S: Doesn't mean I wrote the dedication they would see it but I'll just write anyway. Will continue writing soon, if there is anymore I missed out.